Personal Accounts 001
I’m going to keep this relatively clear and concise, so much is going on and so many positive things are happening I hope not to lose focus. This personal experience report could be a guideline to anyone's journey.
I believe I am in an eccentric upward success spiral. This applies to just about every aspect of my life. I’ve been focusing my energy on something I have never done before--building a concrete block of happiness. Something that is always with me. That no matter what temporary mood, environment, or group I am a part of I can know I am happy there (internal, not external). The 3 specific things I am building at the moment is after this.
I've never realized the mindset you have to come from to live successfully (being great instead of acting it). By understanding the negative mindsets, thought loops, affirmations, and comparisons I use to always indulge in, it allowed me to take a further step back and learn to just acknowledge these thoughts instead of identifying with them. I realized the level of your happiness can completely be unplugged from what’s going on around you (not always the best option but a great discovery).
The first thing I am focusing on, and the next step I believe I am currently going through, is taking a further step back to learn to shut off my logic and thinking part of the brain. From understanding and learning how most of my thoughts connect, build, and inter-twine with each other I can began to learn how to shape that process. The downside to this (but eventual catalyst for success I think) is my tendency to change or stop good thought processes. For example, if I am in a bar and start talking to a girl I can build a great ecosystem of positive emotions around us (by sharing my good emotions with her). What I am learning to shut down is the next level to this understanding. When I logically note what is happening in the conversation, like “Oh this is going well...she is genuinely invested”. By taking a conscious note of what I am doing/saying/feeling it always briefly makes me judge what I will do next. Also it puts me in the paradigm thinking there is now something to lose because its gone so well (figured out that’s just my ego talking--it wants validation instead of risk). This is like putting a speed bump on the word-slide going from my brain to mouth. When I’m not consciously analyzing what I want to say I can just happily share myself freely. I think the way to approach this issue in the future is not avoiding the awareness of my actions/words, but as soon as pops into my head just acknowledge it (laugh a bit) and move on. By trying to bury it I'm just moving more energy towards it.
The second big focus in building the underlying enjoyment of life is taking things with a grain of salt, focusing on the major good in life instead of the minor setbacks. Understanding success has a general positive slope instead of a perfect one. Many, many small or different things used to throw me off my balance of positivity. I’ve noticed that and am learning to instead not give attention to those things (not judge, compare, contrast between anyone). Figuring out to just enjoy it all. I’m building more of a respect for everything, everyone, and what they’re all going through. It’s gratitude. In turn more happiness. Hence the upward spiral--it never has to end. Another part of that focus is acknowledging everything going on, and having confidence in yourself that although there may be better options out there you chose the right one (because you’ll make it the best).
"The best seat at the table is the one I'm sitting at"
